August 2019 - Update

It has been a long time since I sat down to write at this blog. Not because I don't want to or because I don't have the time to - though really, I don't have a lot of free time these days - but because I have changed. This blog has to change, and I know you're going to want to know why, so let's talk.

Everyone knows I've been working on my book: I'm over halfway through the first draft and the end is getting closer every day. Then it will be on to revision, then querying agents, and I'm both ecstatic about that and nervous as hell - but I've also been working on scripts. One with a partner in the hopes it will be picked up and loved in its final form, which I will discuss further when it happens, and another on my own. For now. That one's my baby - you've seen the title by now: American Ghosts. The people who read it say it's smart and interesting, I'm going to have to trust them and hope it can become something special.

Truly, I hope it all becomes something special because I have so much riding on this work. The only work I've ever wanted to do, probably the only thing I'm good at, if I'm honest. I turn twenty-nine in thirteen days, and I'm not at all where I thought I would be. I know we had this conversation on my last birthday, but back then I was trapped in a job I hated...and now I'm not. It came with a price, sure, but I sleep better at night. I'm living on savings and retirement, paying the bills how I can, and writing.

And I'm scared, but I'm free. I stay up well into the night with my tea and my hopes and Scandal playing in the background - a recent obsession, a recommendation from a new friend. I have Amanda Palmer's There Will Be No Intermission on loop right now because I have to dig down deep to finish this novel, I have to go to some pretty dark places because that's what the work is going to require. It will be an excellent story. It already is.

And then I have its sequel half planned. And a few romance novels waiting for my attention, though I'm not a fan of reading them I can definitely write them. And both first seasons of these shows to finish, with following seasons to plan - never mind production and seeing how all of that will play out for the first time. It's a lot, guys. It's a lot.

I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm writing this to let you know that I'm okay, really, I am. I'm the happiest I've ever been, I'm living the beginning of my dream and it is just as hard as I imagined it would be. I don't know where the money's coming from, I've lost friends along the way, but I'm going to stand by my gift and my choices because they're what I have.

They're all I have.

If you've supported me this far, thank you. Thank you for your patience and your kindness, thank you for looking at my work and encouraging me to keep going - thank you for your love. For your strength. For your hope, when I lose my own. I'm going to be okay because you're there to prop me up when I can't stand on my own.

This blog is going to change. I might still do book reviews and travel tips, I might talk to you about the music that's inspiring me, but mostly I'm going to come here to talk to you. To update you on what's going on with me, so you can stay in the loop, because things have been happening so quickly since April and it's just going to keep speeding up. I want to take you with me and this is the only way I know how.

In the meantime, have the song I've been playing all morning and know that I'm thinking of you.

1 comment:

  1. I am so, so proud of you love! It warms my heart that you are starting your next adventure. You're going to be fabulous! Thank YOU for allowing me to walk beside you on your journey. Your courage inspires me! ��